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måndag 16 augusti 2010
I keep this blog in order to remember the good things in life. Tonight was a reminder of that.
Here's another reminder of how good we have it: http://www.newsweek.com/photo/2010/08/15/best-countries-in-the-world.html
Live each day to the fullest, don't take life for granted. Recently heard that a friend (not one of my close ones, but a good person who is loved by many) is terminally ill. That too puts things in perspective.
Spent all of last week in Helsinki. The week was topped of by Flow festival. Biggest mind blowers were definitely M.I.A and The XX!
Also got to see several friends over there that I don't see all too often. One of them is on his way to Denmark now to perform. If you are there, don't miss this show, it's spectacular!
More info on http://www.cryingoutloud.org/racehorsecompany.php
Last but not least I have to complain about the way Finns dress, once again. Us Scandinavians are generally quite pale, which makes it really hard for me to understand why so many women here insist on wearing combinations of beige and white. ONLY BEIGE AND WHITE!! Why? It makes us look even more pale! And they are really boring colors, especially combined together!
tisdag 20 juli 2010
We went to see Villa Nah,and it was awesome!!!
Also, I have to say, guys with freckles are just the hottest thing ever. EVER!
måndag 19 juli 2010
Anyway, the first thing is, I've noticed women here (Finland) tend to wear sleeveless summer dresses with a t-shirt underneath. Why on earth do they do that? It looks so stupid! Sleeveless dresses are sleeveless for a reason! If you don't feel comfortable wearing them, then don't buy them, it's an insult to the dress! In some sense I understand why this happens, the summer here is so short and we are not as used to baring skin as people in warmer places. But still! It looks awful! Don't do it!
Second, where do you draw the line? What is cheating? (And no, I'm not cheating, I can't since I'm single, I just started to think about it. It's really tricky once you start thinking.)
torsdag 15 juli 2010
lördag 10 juli 2010
Not long ago I went out on a sunday. Just to have a few glasses of wine with an old friend who I used to work with. Somehow we ended up at a bar. It was completely crowded and after hitting the bar we were a bit concerned wether or not we would find a place to sit...luckily we found a table at the very center that was full of old friends and co-workers! They invited us to join them and so we did. At some point my friend commented that "this is nice, I remember three years ago when I used to go out on sundays, it feels just like back then, same people, same bar". And she was very right. It was like visiting the past. There was a time when I used to hang out with this group of people more regularly. But even though I still like them, and still have a good time whenever I see them, I've moved on. But for that night, visiting my past was a good time. And, actually same goes for thursday night...that was seriously visiting the past! It also made me understand why it is the past and not the present. But it was nice.
måndag 5 juli 2010
I'm wondering why this is so? I'm not complaining, because I rather enjoy being single. It has a lot of perks. For example I can do whatever I want, go where ever I want, be with who ever I want, and when ever I want. The freedom when being single is something I really value. Also I don't have to make compromises about anything, I get all the closet space, I get to choose the colors of the walls etc.
But as the norm in today's society is that of twosomeness (is that even a word) it makes me wonder, is there something wrong with me? I have been attracted, and had flings that I would've hoped had led to something more, so it's not like I'm against being in a relationship. So what's the problem? Why am I not succeeding in finding someone I want to be with and who wants to be with me?
I'm no super-model, but I look good. I'm athletic and not very big. I have plenty of guy friends who seem to like my company, so that leads me to the conclusion that there isn't really anything severely wrong with my personality either. I just don't get it!
I had a discussion about this with a friend of mine, who in this sense is very much like me. Her response was that she thinks we are both missing some sort of girlfriend-gene. Could that be? We are both quite goal-oriented, in the beginning of what will become great careers in what are considered high status jobs, funny, smart, good looking and confident. Those are pretty much the same qualities that I personnally would want in a partner, yet we are both single, and have been for quite some while.
In the meanwhile, I see couples where the girlfriends are very demanding, naging, complaining, restricting, and insecure (yes, there are exceptions). Is that what guys want?? Can it be?? If so, why?
Somebody please explain to me!
tisdag 29 juni 2010
yesterday was super lazy. Finished the day off with two friends and a bottle of rosé wine in the park. Today is a little more active. Had a morning (11 am) work-out, now lunch break, then reading in the park, coffee with a friend and maybe movies tonight.
Should start preparing for painting the next wall. But until then, here's a picture of the first wall, plus the blue chair I'm still in love with.
måndag 21 juni 2010
Saturday we were playing and after our show we went to my place for some wine and then out to see M's band play. They played an awesome set! Also met V, who I haven't seen in a long while. She was very happy because she had scored the top result on the admissions test to the most famous art school here. Very happy for her! Also MK decided he will join us out in the archipelago for midsummer. Totally awesome!! (The after-party at M's place I could have skipped though...)
And to finish the weekend off, my parents popped in on a surprise visit, I wasn't expecting them until today or tomorrow. Good to have them here for a few days.
Today is my last day at work. Starting tomorrow I will be on holidays until aug 9th! Hell yeah! Hope we get some nice weather here soon...should book tickets for Berlin and London soon...
fredag 18 juni 2010
Went to the town market square and got some cherries. Cherries are good. And tonight I'm seeing a good friend for some wine and jazz. Another friend will be one of the people providing the jazz. And the sun is shining. Life feels good today.
torsdag 17 juni 2010
After the show our whole company went to P&K for some champagne, sauna and BBQ. Good friends, good food, good drinks, feeling so fresh and so clean...That was perfection!
måndag 14 juni 2010
Also made some new friends which is always nice. Might have to make a trip over to Norway next month.
While the weekend was great and awesome and all it still left me feeling a bit confused. The question in my mind right now is, if something feels good, but you know there is no future, is it ok to just run with it while it lasts and just ignore possible problems it might cause? Or to phrase it in another way, if you don't know what you want, but it feels good right now, do you have to know what you want, can't you just go with it? Right now I'm leaning towards blindly ignoring all possible problems and just go one day at the time and see what happens.
söndag 6 juni 2010
Small contradiction here. I keep this blog to visualize the things that make me happy. And right now I feel happy. But I'm a cynical person, I'm not the happy happy joy joy girl. It's difficult sometimes to accept happiness after being cynical about all things. I still am. But at the same time I'm quite happy. It's not the outside, it's the inside.
Still have the blue pic to upload...
tisdag 1 juni 2010
I just feel so at peace with things. E was happy with my work and it means a lot coming from him.
Working on our new production...the schedule is crazy tight, but I think we will pull it together at the end. Actually we don't really have a choice since tickets are already out for sale. But it's all good.
Listening to Petter's "Mikrofonkåt", talk about nostalgic shit!! It's like being back in high school...those were the days. These are the days. Got to stop this now, my happiness is reaching ridiculous levels. Spread some love folks!
tisdag 25 maj 2010
Also managed to paint one of the walls in my livingroom. It's perfect, will post a picture soon.
And also, I've managed to get myself in a potentially awkward situation. This one guy, we will call him the artist, called me last night and asked if I would have lunch with him today. I don't know him very well, he's more a friend of a friend but I agreed to lunch. He's just visiting here and hadn't really slept at all last night so when I told him I was going to work he asked if he could stay at my place and take a nap. No problem. The problem is that I don't know if he's intending to stay the night. Or, sure he can stay the night, there's room, but since I don't know him that well I can't really tell if he just needs a place to crash or if he's actually hitting on me. I'm afraid he is hitting. And since this other guy, we'll call him L (for Lover) is coming tomorrow this might turn tricky. Guess easiest way out is just telling it like it is, that he can stay the night but that's it, no hanky panky.
And to complicate matters even further, talked to Mr Q last night. He split up with his girlfriend and is coming to visit on saturday. Knowing our history this is not good...how'd I get myself in such a mess??
lördag 22 maj 2010
For the same reason I don't like to write about work here. It's not important in the bigger picture.
Tonight I'm going to see the graduating circus students do their final shows. Looking forward to it very much! After that I need to go home to take a nap, prepare for tomorrow (bought paint for the livingroom) and maybe go out. Probably go out. Most likely go out =)
torsdag 20 maj 2010
Aaaahhhh I absolutely love the smell of sun-screen! It smells like summer and I love love love it! We've had this amazing heat wave for the last week or so, almost 30 degrees celsius everyday! It's so awesome! That combined with the days just getting longer and longer equals me very happy.
Went out last night. Had a great time. M is back in business which is super! He's been out of the picture for a couple of months just stressing over school auditions. Now they are over, he did well and we're keeping our fingers crossed for him. He so deserves to get in! But I'm glad the auditions are over and he's back to his old self. The afterparty was at his place last night (it's usually either that or my place). It was fabulous. We sat out in his garden in the middle of the night, around 2am and M played the saxophone for us. He played a short piece he had composed earlier that day. I think we might have woken some neighbours up...but the music was beatiful so they probably didn'n mind. But it was perfect. Imagine, a group of four good friends, one of the first warm summer nights, a bottle of champagne, a sax solo with birds twittering in the background...aahhh...perfection!
My livingroom painting project is progressing, today I measured my walls and was planning to go buy the paint, but the weather was so nice that I ended up spending almost all day at one of the riverboats with my cousin. Tomorrow I'll go buy the paint first thing in the morning! Then I'm off to the pool for some chilling. Not a bad start for the weekend.
måndag 17 maj 2010
lördag 15 maj 2010
My blue period is still going strong, found the perfect shade for my livingroom, now I just need the time to paint. Also bought two chairs with blue seats and backs. I'll show you soon, they're gourgeous! My eye is also blue. And not as in "I have blue eyes", it's the area under my eye, it's purple and blue. Not so gourgeous...
Went to the theatre last night. It was kind of spur of the moment. Hadn't planned going, but I happened to talk to a friend who was going, and it was the last time the theatre was showing that particular play, and I had the night off from work so why not. And apparently I wasn't the only one who was having a night off, bumped in to seven friends at the theatre. That might be a record, considering it was a childrens' play. Ended up going out with the cast of the play later that night. It was fun. Waking up this morning when my chairs were being delivered wasn't quite as fun though.
måndag 10 maj 2010
...then if I could only find that pink leather couch...
I'm thinking I'll have time to paint the walls in June. Can hardly wait! Maybe I should let you see it once it's done?
The big dilemma for today is what to do tonight - invite a friend over and enjoy a bottle of red wine, or go out running? I'm hoping I'll have energy for the running once I get home because I'm in such awful shape right now, something needs to be done about it!
fredag 7 maj 2010
Tomorrow I'm going to watch and give feed-back on three different performances by teenagers. I wish to be inspired, and I dread hurting the young ones by being too constructive or harsh...
tisdag 4 maj 2010
There is, and I went to see one of their show/presentations yesterday and was truly moved by their stories. If you happen to be around Helsinki or Stockholm this or the following week I suggest you check them out.
I've always had a thing for clowns...they are so hot in their own weird tragicomic way. So humane and vulnerable and strong at the same time. Much love to all the clowns out there!
måndag 3 maj 2010
I have dark circles under my eyes. They weren't there when I was 19. I guess that is what aging, staying awake, and emotional base jumping does to your face.
Went out this weekend. Ended up at a small, intimate after party. Just four people. One law student, one med student and one business school student, and me. Hah, who does not belong in this picture? At some point of the night we realized that nobody there knew more than one of the other people there. Somehow we had all assumed that everybody else already knew each other. Best part of the after party would have to be the next morning when one of the guys made the rest of us breakfast, salad, oranges, grapefruit, bacon, fresh bread..delicious! It made for a little pic nic on the livingroom floor.
Now I'm thinking about going to see a small play tonight by four clowns. It could be fun.
fredag 30 april 2010
tisdag 27 april 2010
Where to start...? It was long, very very long. 4 hours and 15 minutes with only one break. I must admit to being abit apprehensive about this play because of the length. I love theatre, but never the less, I have fallen asleep during plays if they are too long and too slow. Luckily, even though I was really tired when I got to the theatre, there was no risk of me falling asleep during this play! It was very intense, the dynamics worked well and the actors were seriously working their asses off on stage! The costume design was awesome. The scenography was even better! (I bet the stage techs don't love it as much as I did, it must take ages to set up and deconstruct.) I love how the director had made use of the entire stage in many different ways, and also incorporating live video projection.
It was also very physical, lots of running and shouting for the actors. No wonder they only play it a couple of times a month. All and all, I liked it, but on the down side I have to say I wasn't touched. It didn't make me feel. It was good theatre. Great is when something happens to your own emotions when sitting in the audience. This didn't quite get all the way there, but I enjoyed it.
måndag 26 april 2010
The other weird thing was that the vampires were being hunted by flies, gigantic flies the size of pigs!
Now psycho-analyze that!!
Speaking of weird, weirdest place I've ever slept was behind a washingmachine at a trailorpark in Australia.
söndag 25 april 2010
Tomorrow I'm going to the theatre to see Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina. If I can get tickets that is, I hear it's sold out, but that shouldn't be a problem. Pretty much all theatres have seats they don't normally sell out, you just have to know the right people. But...you never know, I might be out of luck.
"Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way." - Tolstoy
lördag 24 april 2010
It's so beautiful it hurts inside when I listen to it. It makes me feel small, like the whole universe is crashing down on me through the sound of a sax. Can't really explain it, but it hurts and I can't get enough.
lördag 17 april 2010
Last night was no exception. The bars here close at 4am and we were a group of about ten people that decided to have an afterparty. Eventually everybody had left the afterparty except for me, a juggler, and a break dancer. I knew the smart thing to do would be to go home and get some sleep as I was going to work the next day. But instead I stayed, and we had a really intense discussion about the performing arts. At 8am I finally decided it was time to call it a night. Needless to say, work was no pic-nic today. But it was worth it.
After work I had planned to go to a friends birthday party...but had to face the cruel fact, that I'm too old for this shit. So here I am, saturday night, starting a new blog. This time I write as myself and what I write is true and not make believe.
"Stand up against governments, against God.
Say only what we know & imagine.
Absolutes are Coercion.
Change is absolute.
Ordinary mind includes eternal perceptions.
Observe what's vivid.
Notice what you notice.
Catch yourself thinking.
Vividness is self-selecting.
If we don't show anyone, we're free to write anything..."