tisdag 26 juli 2011

We like to move it move it

I'm moving to Oslo on Sunday. Right now, that feels kind of...strange.
My cousin is moving back to Stockholm. A friend is moving back to Turku from Geneva. Another friend moved from Stockholm to Geneva. Another friend is moving to Amsterdam. Another one is coming over from NZ to Europe for an undetermined amount of time. Two friends came back from Brazil after 5 months there. One is moving to Hanko. When I move back to Finland one of the people I will have been missing the most will still be in Brazil for another two months. Sometime it would be nice to just have everybody in the same place even for a day.

måndag 25 juli 2011

I am the fox

It is all so familiar. The softness. I can't describe it. I want you to know.

I am the fox from the "Little Prince". I need to be tamed. I want to be tamed. But it is scary. What will happen if I trust you? Don't come too close too fast. Be patient. I'm a shy fox and if you move too fast I'll retreat in to the bushes.

tisdag 19 juli 2011

I need a glass of wine

Who will drink wine and make grand plans for the future, discuss the depths of art, and curse the state of the world today with me?

The restlessness I tell you! It's an old friend of mine, I've been here before and I already know how it will end or what stupid things I do to fight the boredome and restlessness. Actually started already, why break bad habits? At least I am feeling something! That is good. The truth is in the skin, it's the only thing that prevents thoughts.

At the same time it is all new and I'm finding it hard to sit still. Time is running out! Only two weeks before Oslo. These two weeks should not feel so thin, they should be thick!

torsdag 14 juli 2011

Life isn't always serious

It is Thursday once again. And I pledge that tonight, there will be no afterparty at my place!! Last two thursdays there has been and I'm not sure how much my neighbours appreciate it. Last week J cooked for us (flambéd (how the heck do you spell that) pineapples with vanilla ice-cream) K, M, T, and A swopped clothes. Next day was quite useless. K cooked which was nice. After that we spent the rest of the day in a coma in one of the parks around here. Lets see where tonight takes us!

Being half dead can be beautiful at least in a place like this!

onsdag 13 juli 2011

Keep your eyes on the road and your hands upon the wheel

After a quick visit to my grandfather's grave it is now time to head back to civilization. 4 hour drive ahead. Next post will be about more everydayish stuff.

tisdag 12 juli 2011

All, once again, is relative

Taking a break from all the vacationing (it is so exhausting I need a vacation from my vacation, now that's the spirit of modern day society) and spending a few days in the Finnish country-side at my grandmom's place. It's great and she's great. I've been basically just sleeping and eating (anybody up for some hard core training once I get back in to town?).

My grandmom is so cool. I love her. Being here and talking to her also reminds me of how important it is to stay in touch with one's own history. Dad is also here, he's been here longer than me. Last week he got a bunch of letters written by my father's father's father when he was serving as a soldier in the second world war. He was quite old for a soldier so luckily he didn't have to serve very long. Also he ran the local village shop so he was needed back home. I haven't read much of the letters yet, but what strikes me is how family oriented my great grandfather was. It is clear to see in his letters that he misses his family very much. He says no man with a family should have to serve in a war.

It is too easy to distance oneself from the war and its horrors. There are wars going on all over the world constantly and the suffering is equally undeserved regardless of the sufferer. Lets try to keep in mind that "our men" (who ever they are) are no saints either. They bring suffering to others just as others bring it to our men.

onsdag 6 juli 2011

When you don't feel like cooking

Seriously, who can cook in this heat? Not me, that is for sure! I'm not complaining about the summer (that's basically a deadly sin if you live as far north as I do) but the houses here are built to stand for -30 degrees celsius, so now that the outside temperature is around 30 degrees celsius, the inside temperature is 37 degrees celsius. You do not want to turn the stove on, believe you me! Yet, one has to eat, so here is what we did. Delicious.

söndag 3 juli 2011


I have a thing troubling my mind. A very good friend of mine. He lives not too far from here, just a couple of hours, yet we don't see each other very often. And I miss him like crazy. He is just one of those people who I can't even imagine not having in my life.

Yet now I feel him slipping away. Everytime I go to Helsinki I give him a call and we meet up. Only lately it just feels different. It is not as deep as it used to be. It feels superficial, and our friendship has never been superficial. I feel like I'm trying and trying, and getting nothing back. Now I'm moving out of the country for 5 months and he is still not making any efforts to keep in touch or to hang out. I have no idea why the sudden change. But it makes me really sad. I always felt he is a true friend who really cares, now I no longer feel it. I can't force anyone to do anything, I just wish he would think our friendship is something worth fighting for.