fredag 21 oktober 2011

Friday words of wisdom






I realize I can not go around hoping for, wanting, searching, for the unexpected. I also realize it is in some degree up to me. I read an article a few days ago. It was about what people at their deathbed say they regret the most. You know what it is?
Not letting myself be happier.
Living my life according to the expectations of others.
Not following my dreams.

Luckily, these are things I have already realized. But I think we could all get even better at it. Why pass on something that might turn out like a lot of fun just because it might be a bit embarrassing or because it might make others think you are crazy? What if, instead of thinking "Nah, I can't do that, people will think I'm crazy" you would just go "I have absolutely nothing to lose, only live once, lets do this!".

I try to do that. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes it takes a few minutes of gathering courage. But never have I regretted any of the silly things I've done because they are the things I remember. And remembering them makes me smile in an otherwise quite gray day-to-day life.

With these thoughts in mind I must say I am looking forward to this weekend. No commitments made, but plenty of invitations. I understand my friends don't really like me being so flaky, but the thing is, I don't have a lot of free time right now and when I do have free time I don't want to commit to coming to dinner or seeing a play or having lunch or whatever, because that, in my mind, beats the purpose of free time. How can I be spontaneous if I always have some place where I have promised to be at a certain time? I appreciate the invitations, but would like to keep my right to make split second decisions.

Bon week-end à tous!

torsdag 20 oktober 2011

Please, DO rock my boat

Please inspire me!

Or make me fall...

Make me angry!

Anything, just make me feel anything!

This is the problem. I hear some people like this. They say it is safe and that in the end we all long for safety and familiarity. I don't. Will I ever? I want the adventures! I want the crazy experiences, like when we accidentally drove to Canada on our way to Chicago. Or like when we slept on the floor behind a dryer in a laundry-room at a trailorpark in Australia. Or like that afterparty when people swopped clothes and we flambéd pineapple in my kitchen.

There has been nothing even remotly crazy, life altering or ground-shaking in a very very very long time!

This needs to change! The sooner the better!

fredag 7 oktober 2011

it is like prison

FYI, I wore jeans today for the first time in about 6 months and let me just tell you, it will not happen again in the near future! UNCOMFORTABLE! I am going back to dresses! That is all, thank you and good night!

Hold on to your hats!

Btw, the date the other night went well! I don't think he is my type but he was super super nice and we hade a great time just talking. First time I checked to see what time it was, it was 2.20am!!! And we had met up at 7pm! That has got to count for something, right?

There is just so much going on right now and I really really love my life! The store-opening last night was PACKED. But drinks and food were super, and so were the goodiebags we got (there was a t-shirt, some make up products from Maxfactor, hairproducts from L'Oreal, chocolate, a magazine (Smug), a gift certificate for 40€ on jeans, a gift certificate for 25€ for a hair salon).

Siinai's gig was also good! Not my kind of music, but good in respect to the genre they represent.

Tonight we're going to the comedy show, that'll be nice. Just hoping M is up for it, she called in sick today.

Tomorrow H is visiting!! Yay!! The band she dances for has a gig here so we're going to see the gig and then go out. I was really looking forward to a serious night out, BUT turns out, I have to take it quite invited to an audition quite early on Sunday. Which is great of course. But my chances are not very good since they are looking for dancers. But I figure it's good to go regardless.

AND, I might have a date on Sunday! Tell you more about that later (no, it's not the same person as last time, although I'll probably see him again as well).

I guess the adventures I've been hoping for are happening all the time, I'm just not realizing it. Sometimes it's hard to see the forest for all the woods you know...

torsdag 6 oktober 2011

Money is overrated

How to make it without money in Oslo? Easy. As long as you have enough for food and rent, you're good, that's all you need!

Tonight I'm going to a store opening (which means free alcohol and snacks) and after that we got free tickets to a gig with Siinai. Tomorrow night we got free tickets to go see a Jonas Gardell, a Swedish comedian, and on Saturday night we got free tickets to a gig with Leningrad Cowboys.

Who needs money?

onsdag 5 oktober 2011

Non-static existence

A week or so back I had a very interesting meeting. I was meeting a producer for a company I'd really like to work for and he was telling me I should apply for a job with them! And as if that wasn't enough, their president also showed up and stayed to chat with us for a while, and the producer guy told him as well that he thought I should be working for them! Note to self: remember to send your CV to dreamjob...

Sometimes I enjoy just walking around town, trying to get lost. I figure we are all trying to find our true selves. Some go to India to do it, others to Thailand. I can't afford either one right now so I'm trying to find myself here. And how can you possibly find yourself if you are not lost at first?

The problem is, I can't seem to get lost! My sense of direction is overwhelming! Is this the universe's way of telling me I'm already there? I've found me?

I hope not, because I'm afraid the adventure ends when you find yourself. From there on it's just peace, serenity and calm for the rest of the journey and I am not ready for that yet!! If finding yourself does not exclude adventure then I'm fine with it!

I have a date tonight. I'm really looking forward to it, although I do not believe this is a person with whom I will get romantically involved. He just seems like a very interesting person and I really want to get to know him!