I'm bringing some peppers, and chili, and salt...

Oslo is now behind and I'm moving back to Finland. Before that though, I am spending some time in Sweden.

But, before we leave Oslo for good I must update you on what went down during the last week or so there.

Christmas party at the embassy. Great success! I got the embassador to perform a bridge. Wearing a dress. I'm very proud of myself.

Going away party at my place. Great success! Even some international drama going on there. Nothing major though. We stayed at my place until 4 am and ended the party by having a pic nic consisting of, um...french fries and turkish pepper shots on my livingroom floor. That is truly a crowd I will miss. Luckily some of them are flying over for my birthday next month!

Sweden is crazy. Or the weather is. No snow. Just windy as hell!! About ten of our trees went down last night because of the storm. Guess we are lucky it wasn't anyone of those closest to the house.

New years is coming up and this year I've made no plans for it. Therefore I was very happy today when I got an invitation to dinner and party at a friend's place in Stockholm. Me and a bunch of Stockholmian lawers, its got disaster written all over it! Got to love it! The invitation actually said they need me to spice things up. All I can say is be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it...

No time to write, too busy partying

It is a bit hectic, last days in Oslo.

Went to some fancy party thing a few weeks back, ended up at gay club with Norwegian politician and some photographer who disagreed on my view of art. Good times were had by all (except the photographer).

Christmas party with friends. We sang christmas songs in Finnish, Swedish, Norwegian, Spanish, and Chinese. We are so internationally fabulous. Good times were had by all.

Christmas dinner at boss's place. He cooked a five course dinner for us. I was impressed.

Still to come:

Christmas party at the embassy tonight.

Going away party at my place tomorrow night.

Go figure!

So what happens? Worst possible of course, romantic music and candles and dinner. And when I was leaving he kissed me on the mouth. Can not see him anymore obviously. Our expectations are not the same. And now I have to tell him that. Fuck.

Grass is always greener...

So, the guy I mentioned in the previous post? I'm going on a third date with him tonight. Yay! Or so you might think, but actually I'm kind of freaking out. I'm afraid he is more interested than I am.

He is serving dinner at his place tonight. I swear, if there are candles on the table it will be a very short date! What is wrong with me though? As soon as somebody shows interest I freak out and feel like I can't breathe. But if a guy seems like he is not really interested than I can't get him off my mind. I guess it's the chase more than the guys themself...too sad.

Things that make my knees weak

I have a date today after work. I'm not the type of person that gets nervous about stuff, but today I am! This guy is uncomfortably handsome and I have no idea why he wants to go out with me. He is the kind of movie star handsome that makes you extremely self-aware. And he is older than me. 7 years older.

I know it'll be alright. I'll just be me, which is not bad at all. I just can't imagine that I would be his type. My bets are there will not be a second date, but who cares? Handsome man, I will enjoy his company today.

Priceless

It struck me again yesterday how important it is to have free-time. I mean real free-time, not just weekend. I did have some plans for the weekend, but to be honest, I didn't feel like going through with any of them. So I cancelled. Perhaps that upset some people who were affected by it. But it freed up my weekend. And it was exactly what I needed!

How can you ever be spontaneous if every second of every minute of your life is scheduled?

Ended up going to dinner and then movies with three good friends. No plans were made, we just went to eat, and once we had finished eating one of my friends said he felt like going to the movies, and so we did. It wasn't any extraordinary events, but just the freedom to be able to do it just because it felt like a good idea at the time is worth so much.

You suck!!

I've read through about a million blogs today. And they all suck. They were all terribly written and incredibly boring. Maybe I am too. But since this is me and my universe which revolves around my being I'm choosing not to care. Caring would only lead to insecurities and misery, who wants that?

I do realize how immature this post sounds. It's just...I don't know how to explain. I think it is perfectly possible to write about everyday nonsense in an entertaining way. But all the blogs I've read today go like this: "Today I woke up and was very tired. Then I had breakfast and went to school/work. After school/work I came home and had dinner. Now I'm just relaxing."

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzz.... you lost me.

Maybe I'm exaggerating, I did read a few blogs that weren't like that. But instead they were really pretentious and attention seeking. Don't like that either. Am I just too hard to please? I think not. I'm a normal (more or less) person. My life is just as boring as everybody elses, I'm not asking for or demanding extravagance. I'm just not interested in you waking up, going to work, and eating. I'm interested in what you saw on your way to work, and what that made you think about. That is what makes you different from everybody else.

On a different note, found some gorgeous vintage red leather boots by Finnish designer Juhani Palmroth. I love them!